I woke up this morning, and did the usual Sunday morning crap: I woke up, got ready, and then went to church. And at church I got to sit with my awesomesauce boyfriend! It was absolutely amazing! Not as good as sucking face, but at least I got to see him, right?! It's like every time I see him, my heart skips a beat and I'm reminded of all the reasons I love him. I thought I'd been in love before but now I don't think so. Because it was nothing like this. It wasn't this intense need to be with this one person. Now I realize that it wasn't love. This... This is love. He's my first love. And I know he'll be my last love. Sometimes I just stop what I'm doing to think about how much I love him. Like OHMAGAWD I LOVE this guy!!! I know it seems premature but all I want to do is be with him for the rest of my life!
So anyway, needless to say, I thought my birthday was totally going to suck. Like except for when I'm talking to my boyfriend, I've been wicked depressed lately, and I don't really care about being 15, but today was legit fun. Maybe fun isn't the right word, but it sure as hell wasn't miserable. I think I'm finally realizing that there can be some in between. Like maybe I'm not happy, but that doesn't mean I have o be sad. I think today I was just thankful that I wasn't totally depressed and that brightened my mood a little bit. And I must say that I LOVE my presents. Every single one. And I love all my awesomesauce friends who made today so awesomesauce!
I love how it's my 15th birthday and I look about 13 in this picture! :(
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