And A Week Later I'm Still Here

Hey lovies! So I realize that I've sorta been neglecting you, but hey! I had quite a bit going on. It's hard to balance everything when the tripple s attack matters most. Sander. School. Soccer. So yah I've recently decided that since it's the last quarter, I'm actually going to try in school. So no more Cs... I'm way too smart for that shit. I guess I suddenly realized that mediocrity is just one more thing that depresses me. If I can have an A in all my other classes, why can't I have one in Algebra 1? There's no reason why I can't. This quarter, my aim is at least a B+. And I know I can do it if I try. If I do my homework... So far I've been getting everything in on time so YAY ME!!!

And now for the part of this post where I get all deep:

I have no patience for people anymore. They're time consuming. Energy suckers. All they do is take. Take take take. Draw. Extract. All my emotion and all of my feelings, until all I am is the one thing I never wanted to be: me. They mess around and poke and analyze my head, my brain, and by the time they are done I have no energy to hide from them. Nor do I have the energy to hide from what scares me the most. I scare me. The power I have over myself has to be the most dangerous on this earth. Because I have the power to take myself to heights that no one else has ever imagined. I also hold the power to take myself to depths that compete with the ocean floor. I have created my own heaven. I have thought up my personal hell. I have gained the knowledge that will eventually cause my demise. What pleasures me now will later be used for my torment. All I can do now is sit and wait.