Saying Goodbye

My boyfriend is moving to Holland! And I'm in a helluva lot of trouble! What else is new? Just about everything under the sun has changed since the last time I blogged... Everything except for the fact that I'm madly in love with my sweetie! I don't know how this is gonna work out, but it will! I refuse too give up on something tht just started. Five months ago, I was a completely different person. I've changed. A lot. Mostly for the better, although many would disagree with that statement. The point is that there is no way in hell that I can go back to the way it was before. And the thing is that I'm not sure I would go back to the old me even if I had the chance to do so.

Part of my English exam yesterday was to write two paragraphs on something involving how my year was. I chose to write about the hardest part of being a freshman. Schoolwork didn't make the cut. Neither did boys or even eating disorders... The hardest part of being a freshman was growing up. It's hard growing up and at the same time, staying true to yourself. Hell, it's damn near impossible in my book! But somehow, I survived being a freshman. And I will survive the next three years. I will. I will.  I will!!!

I'm gonna miss him, though. Like I'm going to miss being able to see him. I'm going to miss his voice and omg! I'll die without being able to look into his eyes or feel his touch. But I know that I can't die. I promised him that much and I intend to keep my promise. I intend to keep all my promises. I guess in the end, this will work out the way it's supposed to be. Hey as long as God's on the throne, I'll be okay. But I'll miss him so much. Guess I'll just have to grin and bare it for a while... For three years.